Today I was listening to Tom Waits and the song Blind Love came up in the rotation. I have heard this song countless times, but for some reason I keep hitting repeat. I don't know why today of all days it would catch my attention and not let go.

Blind love is the most bitter sweet and beautiful thing we can have in our lives.

It is the reason we ignore when people hurt us, break our bones, talk down to us and leave us an emotional and physical wreak. Blind love is why we take the abuse and swallow the lies. It is the reason I have, in the past, found myself on the receiving end of abuse and lies. This goes for more then just significant others; its also parents, friends and siblings. At the same time though we ourselves take advantage of someone else's blind love.

Sometimes it leaves us unprepared, like my friend who was dumped by his girlfriend a few days ago. They had been making plans for about a year that when she moved to college he would transfer schools and get a place near her dorm; he did this five days before she broke up with him. I still don't know all the specifics, but I do know that as far as he and pretty much everyone else is concerned, no one saw it coming.

I have seen people give into blind love even when they are handed the truth. My cousin stood in front of her boyfriend and told him she had cheated on him again and that she said didn't want him anymore. After about a week she walked back into his home and his life; he didn't care as long as he had her. He was like a cow being slapped with a blank slate.

Then again, it is probably the only reason most of us have ever had love in our lives.

Its the reason we ignore all of the pointless things that ought to drive us mad. We are blind to wet towels on the floor, dirty dishes on the desk, and clothes left strewn about. It is why we forgive someone for having to tell them something four times because they are playing video games or because we have to shuffle through the unfinished art projects that clutter up everything. It is why we listen to them rant for epically long times about things we have no knowledge of or interest in knowing. It is the reason they do the same things for us.

It is why after all the years you still think they are the most beautiful person on the planet, why you still get goosebumps when they sing and why at the end of the day you are always next to them.

I know that most my friends and all of my family have thought that I am someone that falls into always blind love. To be painfully honest it was the one thing I had the most trouble with; I could never give into blind love for very long. I quickly open my eyes, lose hope and start letting little things bother me. In most of my relationships it was a one way street; to them I was perfect and they drove me insane. Most of them lasted as long as they did because I was praying I would learn how to be blind again. I failed every time.

Still I say, give me blind love any day. Why would you ever want anything more? It is a wonderful ignorance and unyielding forgiveness; it is gleeful abandonment of superficial ideals and unnecessary irritations.

Tom Waits says it best...

I'll find you with my blind love, the only kind of love is stone blind love
The only kind of love is stone blind love
The only kind of love is stone blind love
With your blind love, oh your blind love, your stone blind love